Thoughts

The things we think and do and regret,
Regress your thoughts one by one,
Go back in time and see what life once could have been,
Soppy and boring,
Sad and betrayal,
More our feelings and heart beats harder,
Its so hard to see and feel sometimes,
When you want to go limp and numb,
Grasping the past that once could be,
How life plays its jokes on you and me,
We never could have guessed this way,
Standing there,
Breathing,
Beating,
No thoughts,
Shaking knees,
Make our jump and then its gone,
Disappeared from time forever,
Damn such sadness and thoughts,
Being left to be alone for the rest of ones life,
Never knowing or feeling the true beast,
Take it now and feel, with with every fiber of your being,
This moment is so intense,
Tears pouring out of your face,
Abdominals squeezing so tightly its like whoa,
Indeed this time is great,
Pain tells us we are real,
How could this feeling not exist,
Our souls even crush to understand it,
7 grams if I believe it to be true.